World Cup Chaos

It seems no matter the distance, traveling anywhere as a nordic skier is exhausting. We drove from Houghton all the way back to Minneapolis where I was graciously hosted by my teammate Rosie Frankowski and her family for a few days of rest before jumping over the pond. The sun came out, which felt out of this world, but the temperatures remained frigid. With toughened skin from the week of racing, we ventured out to walk around the city, get in some shopping, and run some last minute errands. It is really nice to spend a little bit of time in the city when we can since most of our races are really out in the woods.

Tuesday came all too fast and before I knew it, I was back lugging my giant brigade of bags through the airport. Eventually, I met the US Ski Team Wednesday night in Tallinn, Estonia where we hopped on a bus headed for Otepaa, our venue for the weekend. I found it very pleasant skiing in temperatures hovering around freezing and snow that actually allowed your skis some glide. I think this helped me to feel artificially good after a long week of racing and lots of travel.

Saturday was a classic sprint. The course felt remarkably fast and short after our epic sprint in Houghton so I felt I had a chance to make the rounds. I thought I skied well, but it wasn't mistake free so I ended the day in 38th. It was easy to pick out the mistakes and they were all things I can quickly learn from so I felt good about the day overall.

I got a little bit lucky and due to different plans and schedules, it turned out that there were only four girls here racing from the U.S. including me, which meant I got to race in the team sprint on Sunday. I wasn't expecting to have this opportunity, but was ready to make the most of it. Team sprints consist of teams of 2. Each person skis one lap of the sprint course before tagging their partner. Each partner skis 3 laps total, making for an exciting race of speed and endurance. Ida Sargent skied legs 1,3,5 and I skied legs 2,4,6. The days starts with 2 semi-finals and the top 2 teams from each semi plus the next 6 fastest times from either semi make the final. The snow conditions were such that each lap slowed down so being in the first semi was advantageous. Unfortunately, both team from the U.S. were in the 2nd semi so we knew we would have to try for top 2. We skied comfortably near the front of the pack for most of the race and on the last lap, I did my best to get in the draft on the downhill and sling shot into the finish. We ended 3rd in our heat, but had just a fast enough time to make the final!

I have never skied a team sprint final and this was only the second team sprint I had ever done so I was ecstatic to make the final. I wanted to do everything I could to stay in the pack and make the most of things. Ida skied some very strong legs, always tagging me off in good positions, I did my best to hold on and was able to sneak into 6th place in the finish. It was very slushy and sloppy, making it hard to stay on your feet and even harder on the legs.  I was really happy with the way I skied and felt I did a good job of putting together 6 solid laps throughout the day. I think we both far exceeded our expectations and were happy with our result. On a fun side note, the 6th place team is the last team that gets a little prize money so this marked my first time winning money on the World Cup!

It's hard to take pictures while racing, but here is a link to watch the final as it appeared on Eurosport. USA of course is in the stars and stripes!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RKP2z_wEBXM&list=PL2B0DQ2mSOeL0RByiHABl9moEgnHktD8N

And here is a recap from the ADN, which also features my teammate Holly Brooks's win on the marathon circuit yesterday as well.
http://www.adn.com/article/20150118/brooks-wins-austria-brennan-surprises-estonia

I shamelessly stole these photos from Nordic Focus...But here I am waiting for the tag from Ida

And climbing up the hill in the final

Sprints often come down to millimeters...This was the lunge for 2nd place in the Men's Classic Sprint, yikes that is a close one!

We head to Russia on Wednesday, which I'm sure will be filled with more adventure and hopefully more good racing!

What a Week

Temperatures never rose, the wind never stopped,  and the snow continued to fall, but we pushed on and completed two more races at U.S. Nationals.

I had the most successful week of racing of my career. I walked away with two more U.S. National titles, making a total of 3 for the week and a 3rd place in the other race. I even won what I consider my weakest event, skate sprints. It was truly an amazing week. It's easy to walk away from a week like this, revel in all the success and never reflect more than that. But, something I have been working on this season is focussing on the process of racing rather than the results themselves. Win or loose, I hope to learn something everyday, grow as a person, and make the best of whatever hits, which means taking time to reflect. So what makes a week like this possible?

1. Teammates and Coaches

My teammates have embraced me for who I am. We support each other, help each other, and create an environment in which we can all be ourselves and have an important role on the team. Erik has continually picked up my pieces when I fall apart, helped me to find the good in the bad, taught me how to believe in myself, been a mentor and role model, and continually emanates the most positive and enthusiastic vibes possible. I am happy when I am traveling and racing with my team. And don't forget the hours and hours of ski work the APU staff put in to make sure we were racing on the fastest skis possible! It takes a team!

On that same note, a team that works well together, finds success together. I would say APU dominated the championship, taking half of the spots in the A-finals in the skate sprint and half of the top 10 in the classic races. Go APU!

2. Racing for the Sake of Racing

I am a very goal oriented person and I often find myself becoming fixated on obtaining a certain result. However, this is very counter-productive. I have found a joy in racing this season that was not there last season and every time I stand on a start line, I am excited to push myself rather than feeling the anxiety of having to obtain a certain place in the race.

3. Remaining Positive

It's rare that a race is perfect by chance, but you can always make a race perfect or at least make the best of what is thrown at you. We were dealing with some nasty weather, but at the end of the day someone still was going to win the race so why not layer on the clothes and enjoy the adventure.

4. Putting Yourself Out There

It's often easier to take the safe route, make an excuse, or avoid something altogether, but then you never learn. It takes putting yourself out there and risking not meeting your goal in order to learn and grow and maybe even exceed your goal. I took a number of risks, leading a good portion of the 20k, attempting to win sprint heats from the gun, and not giving up after face planting and breaking a pole. I can consider my races successes because I did these things and I can be sure I learned a thing or two about myself and racing as a result of taking those chances.

5. Knowing and Having Belief in Your Strengths

This goes along with positivity. I find it easy to become obsessed with weaknesses. For me, it's downhills. I often fear downhills to the point that that is the only thing I think about the on the course, how negative! Erik has planted this idea in my head that if I focus on what I am good at, not only do I remain more confident throughout a race, I can develop a race plan that utilizes my strengths rather than revolves around minimizing my weaknesses. Of course, weaknesses need to be acknowledged and worked on, but that is what training is for, not racing. I had a really good summer of training so I felt my strength was my fitness so I focused my race efforts on believing in my fitness to get me through the slow, cold, grinding course of Houghton.

20k Classic Victory (fasterskier photo)

Skate Sprint Victory (fasterskier photo)

Last Race Exhaustion and Elation (fasterskier photo)

Chelsea and I leading the pack in the 20k classic

The Men's team put together some impressive media production that was picked up around Anchorage. Thanks Boys!

Here are the new clips:

http://www.ktuu.com/news/news/10pm-sportscast-tuesday-jan-6/30570158

http://www.ktuu.com/news/news/10pm-sportscast-thursday-jan-8/30610290

http://www.ktuu.com/news/news/late-edition-sports-jan-10th/30640576

And the ADN article:

http://www.adn.com/article/20150110/brennan-wins-again-kornfield-hanneman-reach-podium-ski-championships-wrap
I have just arrive in Estonia where I will be joining the US Ski Team for World Cups this weekend and next weekend. I hope I can take everything I have learned so far this year and apply it to the World Cup.

Halfway Through

Houghton...what comes to mind when I think of Houghton? Well, literally every different descriptive word I can come up with comes to mind. It's very hard to get to, it's cold, windy, but also has lots of snow, good courses, great volunteers and race organizers. There are pasties, snow machines, and beer, but not a whole lot of greens or good shopping. I have had crashes, but also some break throughs. This week seems to be no different.

The first race was a 10k skate individual start. It was very cold and blowing snow. Adorning some of the most attractive looks Nordic skiing has ever seen with lots of layers and very little skin showing, I set off to see what I could do. The first part of the course is pretty gradual allowing for some big, smooth skiing. I was just getting in my groove, starting down a long, winding, gradual downhill, when, BOOM, I had a mouthful of snow and was unsure of what just happened. I actually thought I had broke my ski, but I stood up and it seemed in tack so I went to plant my poles to start moving again only my pole didn't catch me and there I was getting a taste of the snow again. I then realized it was my pole that broke. Shucks. I got back up reminding myself to stay calm, these things happen, I can still have a good race. There were only two people near me and one was kind enough to offer their pole, only after I grabbed it, did I realize it was taller than me...I kept moving anyhow, doing my best to try to use a pole a size of me as I frantically climbed looking for my coach. Due to the cold and the many layers everyone was wearing, I didn't actually see my coach until he was next to me giving me splits. I told him I needed a pole, which he didn't have in his hand so he took off behind me. Not willing to stop, I kept moving up the hill thinking I probably missed my best chance to get a pole. But I have a coach who literally gives everything he can to help us succeed and soon enough, he was sprinting next to me with a pole that fit. At that point I was 3k into the race and could finally think about actually racing. Unfortunately for me, Caitlin, who ultimately won the race, was able to catch me while I was floundering around. Knowing her impressive skating results, I knew I could still have a good race even if she had already put 30 seconds into me so I did my best to regroup and make a plan. As we headed into the climbs on the second lap, I was feeling great, I wanted to push, and I didn't want to bring anyone with me because I also knew my teammate, Chelsea, who started ahead of me was having a good race. So, I went as hard as I knew how the last 2k and was able to make up some time. 2k wasn't enough distance for me to make up everything, but it was enough to climb on to the podium. Frustrating, of course, but also a learning experience and something I could be happy I made the best of. 

Following Caitlin (fasterskier photo)

Podium, APU went 2,3 with Chelsea in 2nd and me in 3rd! (Skiinyski.com photo)

Skiing very awkwardly with a pole taller than me... (fasterskier Photo)

Next up, classic sprints! We awoke to quite a bit of new snow and heavy snow falling, with also single digit temperatures, yikes. I started first in the qualifying round and I felt as if I was skiing through a snow globe, with no one in front to measure distance, pace, or even see where the trail went. As I entered the stadium, I looked up to see the clock past 5 minutes and I couldn't believe the people who started behind me hadn't caught me. Most sprints take around 3 minutes...It turns out cold new snow is not fast and that is simply how long it took. I qualified in 2nd, frozen and wet. The race organizers are very on top of things here so they actually re-groomed the course before the heats and the snow had enough moisture in it, that it set up nicely, making for some good skiing. The snow even let up a bit and the temperatures maybe climbed a degree or two.  The tracks that had been skied in the most were the fastest so that was the key to the day, to stay in those tracks and keep moving. Our wax team did a remarkable job and my skis were very fast. I noticed that I was getting a gap on a small downhill between two of the climbs so I took advantage and tried to extend the gap up the next climb, then relax and ski well to the finish. This strategy worked in my quarterfinal and then in my semi final so I had to trust it for the final too and it worked! After I crossed the line, I looked back and there was my teammate, Becca, coming across the line in 2nd, adding more excitement. And then my teammate from Park City, Elizabeth crossed the line in 3rd, putting the cherry on top. It was a tough day to be out there racing, or volunteering, or waxing, or really anything so I am very thankful for all the work that was put in and I am ecstatic with how things went. 

Showing off Nordic Skiing's best fashion (skinnyski.com photo)

Nothing better than sharing hugs at the finish...(skinnyski.com photo)

With close friends and good teammates (Skinnyski.com Photo)

Leading out the final (Fasterskier Photo)

Podium pic, APU goes 1, 2 this time! (Fasterskier Photo)

We still have two more races and weather is supposed to be remain the same so it's time to get used to cold snow, cold toes, and not having skin exposed. 

The Alaska Dispatch News has been doing a great job of covering the races so here is a link to the article: 

http://www.adn.com/article/20150106/apus-brennan-wins-snowy-sprint-second-medal-nordic-championships

Fasterskier.com is also, of course, covering all the races if you are looking for more.

What Goes Up Must Come Down

Of course, it's impossible to be living on a cloud for an entire race season. After finding my groove in West Yellowstone and really making it count in Bozeman, I came crashing down. I returned to Park City to find not a drop of snow on the ground and to come down with a cold. Well, at least if I can't train due to illness, I'm not missing out on any good skiing. But still, that double whammy is a hard one to contend with. While there are bits of skiing up high, training on snow machine roads above 8,000 ft with traces of a cold is truly not an ideal way to prepare for U.S. Nationals. I came to a point where I had to decide to suck up my pride, to choose what made the most sense from a training perspective, and to strap on those dreaded rollerskis that I left here after October camp thinking that if I left them, then there would have to be ample snow to train on. As I smacked my poles into the hard, cold, and wet pavement, I wasn't terribly excited or particularly motivated. It took me awhile to find my groove and I began to think, every World Cup I have done, I have noted that my double pole is particularly weak compared to the rest of the field. This is a hard one to keep in my head because when I race domestically, I don't notice this and I often see double pole as one of my strengths (see last post). But, with period 2 World Cup start rights in my hand, I was able to remember many times when I was just dusted on a flat or a finish and alas, I found my silver lining. I may have to put in some hours on rollerskis, but I have also received the opportunity to continue to build my strength in double pole.

It seems ski racing, and really life, requires finding and capitalizing on the silver lining (thanks First Aid Kit and David). It's not an easy thing to get your mind to do and something I am always working on, but a skill that I think will help me not only become a better ski racer, but a better person.

I don't have any pictures because it was truly too sad to take a picture of rollerskiing in December and I forgot my phone on the days when I have found little slices of heavenly winter in the mountains.

Here's to wishing for snow for everyone and to finding that silver lining for every misfortune.
Happy Holidays!

When Everything Works

I have raced at Bohart a number of times and every time I left feeling some sense of despair, like things just didn't go the way I hoped. As result, I dreaded racing there. This year was no exception as we rolled up to the venue the day before the race to find more of an ice skating rink than a ski course, something of a nightmare to me. We waited and let the sun do it's job, warming the tracks, only they went from ice to slop in a matter of minutes, another dreaded snow condition. As I skied around the course, I felt great and I quickly realized that I have put hours and hours of skiing and training in these conditions (thanks Eagle Glacier) and it was actually completely and totally fine, everything was fine. I was feeling incredibly fit and I was going to race no matter the conditions and I was going to have good skis because we have awesome, hard working techs and everything was going to work out.

Upon arriving the morning of the race, the conditions were back to being more on the icy side, but something that was manageable so I strapped on my skis and I just went. I found rhythm, I found speed and power, I was focused, my skis kicked up the hill, flew down the hill and everything went well. I won the qualifier, which I believe was my first time doing so. That was a big boost to me, but also painted a lovely target right on my back for each every sprint round raced, making the my nerves on the high side. I was really confident in my fitness however, I just let myself go and become immersed in my own skiing each round, finding some hidden power I didn't know was in there and advancing to the final with relative ease. Last week, I used the same strategy and then failed in final so I will say, I was unsure if this was the right strategy to be taking. As I lined up for the final, I thought I just felt too good to not try again so off I went, focused on making each stride as powerful and strong as possible until I made it to the high point of the course where I glanced back to see I had a gap. I focused then on skiing smooth and relaxed all the way back to the stadium where I had the chance to really enjoy a sprint race victory.

As soon as I finished, I felt the anxiety for the next day's race, a mass start 10km on a course full of challenging downhills, my absolute least favorite thing! We got to the race the next morning to find some more terrifying ice. I became so worried about just making it around the course, I didn't even think about how I was going to ski, where I was going to make a move or anything, all I wanted to do was survive. Now, this seems a little silly and definitely a little dramatic, but at the time it truly felt that way and I was more than a little consumed. The race started and off I went, skiing with trepidation across the icy tracks. My teammate Chelsea took charge and really just took off. I wasn't sure if she was just finding her groove or if she was going for the win from the gun. I wasn't sure if I wanted to try to catch up to her or just continue trying to survive. Luckily, I know Chelsea, I know her strengths, and I have a rather competitive side in me and my mind took over, caught up to her, and I began to focus on the race itself. Of course, there still had to be a winner, ice or no ice, of course I still needed to finish the race, and of course I am experienced enough to make the best of the situation. Chelsea is a great downhill skier and was smoking me on every downhill. She also happens to be really fit and a great uphill skier. Shoot, how on earth am I going to try to win this race? As we finished the first lap, we had a sizable gap and the field and I had to figure out quickly, how I was going to put my best effort forward. While there are a number of climbs on the course, I felt most of them were quite gradual and given the ice, quite fast meaning I could actually double pole most of the them, ah ha, my mind was still with me and I had my plan. When the course flattens out, go like hell and hope for the best. I went and I got a gap into the long and treacherous downhill section, but I wasn't sure it was enough. I had to conquer my fears of downhills and at least try to not to loose everything, but also try not to fall. I lost time on the downhill for sure, but I also made it to the stadium alone, where I could safely double pole across the line for my second win of the weekend!

As I reflect on the weekend, of course, I am happy to have won, but more importantly, I am really happy with the strength of my mind. There were a number of less than ideal things happening, but they were happening to everyone, they were uncontrollable, and they day had to go on. I was able to find positive focus on the things within my control and amazingly everything worked out. And really when it comes down to it, who can complain about racing when it's 40 and bluebird? Not this western girl. So finally, I won against Bohart!

Teammies, o how I love them!

10km Podium

Racing up the big hill in the sprint final

Sprint Final

Sprint Victory

Racing Begins!

I arrived in West Yellowstone about a week ago and it's one of those places that feels like you never felt as soon as you arrive. Overly excited to ski on some nice snow, I quickly changed and headed to the trailhead, remembering instantly all parts of the trail. I have been coming to West Yellowstone for Thanksgiving since I was in 8th grade and I have amazingly only missed two since then. I actually largely learned how to ski here when I was in eighth grade so this place always holds a special piece of my heart. I did, however, forget just how busy the trails can be having not come last year. There are thousands of avid skiers of all ages and abilities that flock here from all over the country to enjoy the early snow, equipment demos, and clinics put on over the course of the week. Running into someone you know around every bend of course brings feelings of joy, but also frustration as it feels like training takes twice as long when everyone wants to catch up. I suppose I am also a little faster now, making getting around people more of a challenge. Needless to say, it's great to see such enthusiasm for the sport!

While most people are focusing on putting in hours and hours of on snow time, us elite skiers are actually focusing on toning the hours back and getting our bodies race-ready. West Yellowstone holds the first races of the year, which always brings an extra set of nerves and anxiousness as there are so many unknowns. We started with a sprint, which adds an extra element of nervousness as sprints can be rather unpredictable even at the end of a season. The course here really emphasizes a lot of my weaknesses so I really worked on skiing well, rather than fast. It was a good tactic and I actually surprised myself with how well I thought I was skiing. I feel like I made some good improvements over the summer and I pleased to see them applied in a race setting! I skied a good qualifying round, placing third. The heats started off well as well. I won my quarterfinal without too much stress and skied well in semi-final as well, winning that round as well. I was psyched to have the confidence in my skiing going into the finals. There were a number of timing issues delaying the race for some extended periods of time, making it challenging to stay warm and psyched up for racing. For some reason or another, I let it get to me and found myself sluggish off the line, fighting for the end of the pack. I am still lacking in tactfulness during races and struggled to pass people. I did my best up the last hill and into the finish but could only pass one person, ending the day in 5th. It wasn't what I was hoping for, but I felt good about how I was skiing so I did my best to keep my confidence up.

I enjoy individual start distance races the best because I actually enjoy being in my own head and racing my own race. It is a very good strength of mine. I used my strength to start hard and attempt to maintain that pace throughout the race. It worked and I eeked out a win by just 8 seconds, over a very talented junior who is sure to keep us older girls on our toes in the years to come. I am pleased with the weekend for a number of reasons. First, it seems like a big victory just to be here racing, let alone be in contention for winning after the fall I have had. I have to continue to remind myself of that and continue to take each day one at a time, working hard to make that day the best it can be. Second, I feel my technical improvements really showed in the races. For the first time in my life, I don't think I lost time on turns or downhills!

We are spending a few more days training here before moving on to Bozeman for the next set of races.

Hanging out in our new race suits, thanks Craft!

Packer getting after the turkey

Skiing with teamies

Classic, under the arch photo

Check out our new uniforms!

Our coaches adorable kids

Thanksgiving feast

Racing time

Lots of racing

and more racing

My semi final heat

Hit the Panic Button

Every year I say I will do less procrastinating and get things done ahead of time so don't feel stressed before leaving for the season, yet every year at some point in November, I panic.

I was very lucky to come back to Anchorage and have snow to ski on! It is a skier's dream to be in 70 degree weather dryland training one day, hop on a plane, and be able to ski on snow the next. It's maybe one of the best parts of calling Anchorage and Park City home. Not only could we ski, we could ski in town, making for less time driving and more time getting things done. Living the dream, if you will. Two weeks of getting our feet under us, working on technique, practicing going faster, feeling really cold, and loving our real sport was amazing. Then came Typhoon Nuri......While we sat in our beds hoping to wake up to feet of snow, the thermometers were making our hope something of a far off dream. With temperatures in the 40s, Nuri got the best of us bringing the wetter form of precipitation and wiping out our snow in just one night : ( From dreams to nightmares, just like that.

Needless to say, there is always a silver lining.  We can run and find alternative forms of working out with some creativity. I have an opportunity to catch up on my trashy TV shows while biking on a trainer, to get in tune with my inner fish, and maybe even to hit up some Zumba and work on my dance skills. In addition, we have already done all the hard work for the year, so we can take the opportunity to catch a little more rest or in my case, get a little more studying in.

Which brings me to the panic...November brings this anticipation of racing, nerves come in, doubts start to form, excitement strikes, and everything just seems more emotional. In addition, I am beginning my thesis project to complete my Masters of Arts so I am frantically trying to get all the things done that I need to be physically in Anchorage in order to do. It's been some time since I have written a big paper so I also spend a great deal of time in the library, groaning, trying to recall how I could have possibly been able to bust out a paper before midnight the night before it was due. College certainly makes you efficient. Suddenly the realization that I have less than two weeks in Anchorage before leaving for 5 months hits hard, making me look for that big red panic button to push that brings in a crew of people to help me get everything done. Dream on Rosie...

In other exciting news, I am the proud recipient of a grant from the Women's Sports Foundation. This is a big one for me. Not only was I selected out of female athletes from all sports, I had funding cut from other places so I really needed this grant. It is a wonderful organization and truly, without such grants, I would simply be unable to do this. Check out their webpage to see all the cool things they support and read about all this year's grant recipients. http://www.womenssportsfoundation.org/

Last but not least, it's full on fundraising season and the National Nordic Foundation is in the final days of their Drive for 25 fundraiser. This fundraiser is about getting lots of people involved in supporting development of cross country skiers in the U.S. by asking many people to give $25. If you are interested, here is a link to my page: https://support.nationalnordicfoundation.org/fundraise?fcid=367945

Enjoying some skiing in Girdwood. These were new trails to me and they were awesome!

Halloween at practice

Following Sadzarue on a gorgeous day

When it's clear and sunny and there is snow on the ground, things just don't get better

Halloween! Sadie was cheese, Jess and I were troll dolls, something I had many of as a kid. Luckily I am to old to trick or treat so I didn't have to go outside!

We are actually going back to rollerskiing tomorrow...Going from skiing to rollerskiing is actually a skier's worst nightmare, but that's why I have teammates and somehow we will make it through and probably even have a good time doing it. It's just 2.5 weeks until we start racing!